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Crash and Burn when Babysitting Amanda won't talk to me again. I don't know why. I apologized even though I wasn't sure what I was apologizing for. It's an emotional rollercoaster: we get along for a day or two and then something like this happens and I'm left crying and depressed. I just recently got over my depression and suicidal-erm. suicidalness? I dunno. But yeah, I got over it. Stopped online counselling. Felt great about myself. Then last night happened. I was babysitting and we were watching Toy Story 3, which just gets me really emotional because I mean, I dunno, I guess it just makes me think of how I wish I still was a child and

I love her so much. I thought she was only treating me so meanly because her relative died. I was so wrong. She just hates me. And I can't even tell you how much that hurts. I can't stop crying. And I don't think I'm ever gonna be okay. I don't wanna have to go through all the pain and all of this horrible shit I get put through every fucking day of my life. James doesn't even want to date me. Who would? I'm clingy, suicidal, stupid, ugly...half the people I've dated have dated me out of sympathy. And the other two were jerks who just wanted my body. And I don't have any real friends anymore. I used to have so many friends that I could choose

Lyrics and Preciously Awkward Memories Telling your ex-girlfriend that you have a crush on someone is an awkward conversation in itself. It's even more awkward when both you and your ex are crushing on the same person. And even MORE awkward when you know the crush we have on the same person is bad for her because he already likes me. Oh awkward. How I hate the way that word/emotion controls my life. Yes, James has a crush on me. Yes, Crystal and I both are crushing on him. Yes, my life was going back down on the rollercoaster again. However, I happen to be lucky. Crystal has a crush on another person too, so it's all good. It should be easy